*wHy famiLy cOmeS befoRe eveRythiNg......*

daRn...Although i always do say I am strong and will not cry when I think of my family.. I did it laz night! @_@ and it's all because of someone's fault!! somEone wit de name of chiew hOoi lin.......... her latest blog entry triggered the hormones in me =( two birthdays without him, two christmas without him.. but the memories still goes on.. his passing made me realise how important it is to love n cherish all those beside us.. because we never know when they might leave... i didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, let more see him alive for the laz time.. He didn't wait for me to tell him how much i loved him, tell him how much I wanted him to see me graduate, tell him how much I wanted him to be at my wedding one day, tell him how proud I was to be his baby grandaughter... The kiss on the forehead will be gone forever... but I am glad I left my kiss on his forehead... the other way round before I finally said goodbye to him.. That day will always live in my memory... and the pain will always be there...I am always reminded of his love when I see grandpas take their little ones shopping, to the park or just a simple walk along the pathway. I am reminded of how much I missed those times. Although those times will never relive, they are always alive in my heart. I never knew the importance of a family until I was in my late teens.. I sometimes regret the fact that I never learnt of their love earlier. I prayed about it and then I realised it. If so many incidents hadn't taken place, there is even a chance that I won't be here today. The love in our family wouldn't have deepened if it weren't for so many incidents that took place. There fore I am no longer regretting, instead, I am grateful. Grateful for I have today..A loving family, a supportive man, the chance to gain education, the church..a beautiful life. What more could I ask for? Let us all realise how important our family is to us.. instead of a divorce, why not rekindle? instead of a custody, why not co-operate? instead of a break-up, why not give in? instead of hatred, why not love? I've learnt to give all my heart to my family.. and I will never stop giving and learning each day.. because I know this is what Heavenly Father wants me to do.. and not to forget.. this is definitely grandpa's wish....

*wOuLd yOu bE theRe...*

Love is such a frail thing, but yet we cling onto it and never want to let go. It is the only thing that shines a light in the dark alley we're in, burns a fire that keeps us warm in the cold winter and helps us believe that a miracle will always come to turn bad things around. In the movie "Mars VS Venus" I recently watched, I fell in love with one song. I find this song really meaningful and helps me stand stronger at my point of view about love. People always say, "Love is selfish" but to me, "Love SHOULD NOT be selfish. Always put your loved ones before you".That is the most important key to a strong relationship. Here are the lyrics to the song.."Would You Be There"..

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

*bYe ByE kaKak...*

bOo hoo hoo........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kakak's leaviNg 2moz.. after 2 months here, i still have to let her go back to miri!! Argh~ sometimes i really wish i can get my bachelor degree doNe, get a freaking job and buy a freaking house that all can live in!!! But at least we had some good, super good times here while my freaking sisters and my parents had to suffer @ hoMe.. muahahahaha.. now it's my turn to suffer.. whoo hoo.. yeap, i'm still selling fish to earn enough money to sponsor my irritating eldest sister a SNOW CRAB~ can u imagine that?!?!?!?! I am sure i will cry like a pig @ da airport 2moz..but lucky for me, i still have my *you-know-who* wit me =p i won't deny dat i miz food back home and moz importantly, i miz my baby hamster =( can u believe it's a crippled hamster now?!?!?! But thanks to my prayers, baby hammie survived dat dreadful, awful night~! Argh.. IRRITATING ELDEST SISTER, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF IT!!!!!!!! Life doesn't change much, uni's starting again next week~ Darn~ I'm still training my own patience, but people still irritate and annoy me a lot~~ Now i know why people always say, it doesn't take a year to change someone, it takes FOREVER~~ hehehe..i get that now! 2 and a half years to go..... whoO hOo!!!! i'm borEd now.. so i'm gonna go do sum stuff.. will update again sooN!!

wHat?! taKe oWn piC oso wrOng meH?




*eDmoNd & wEn*




KaKaK & edMonD.. gOod tiMes!



uncLe ryAn(rIcK) aNd my irrItaTing sisTer (mS.gIrL)

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I deSpeRateLy neEd coMfoRt..

Yesterday as i watched the movie "The Passion of Christ" once more, i realised that each time I watch it, there is always something new for me to learn there. This time as I watched it, as the nails painfully went through His palm, the Lord did not cry out in pain but instead, He prayed for the people that hurt Him. This showed me the example of forgiveness. As he commanded the people to love one another, this showed me the example of love. Learning the example of Jesus Christ is easy, but to actually put it to practice, why does it seem so hard? Why is it so hard for me to actually forgive someone who has actually hurt me again and again? Why is it so hard to actually put their mistakes aside? Why is it even harder to ignore the mistakes they seem to make over and over again? I desperately need comfort.. because I feel unworthy.. Unworthy to gain forgiveness because I myself can't find the courage to forgive others. I think saying "I forgive you' is easy.. but deep down in our hearts, that cut will always be there. I remember edmond telling me a story of a young boy who had a really bad temper. Each time he loses his temper, his dad told him to hammer a nail in a piece of wood. Soon, the hammering really tired him out and eventually, he learnt to control his temper. And not long after that, his dad told him to take out a nail for each time he managed to control his temper. The little boy soon pulled out all the nails. And his dad told him, "See boy, once the nail goes in and come out, it always leaves a hole there. That hole can never be covered up anymore".. That goes the same to my heart. Once the hole is there, no matter how many nails you try to pull out, it will always be there. But it's different when I am a child of God. The atonement enables me to cover up those holes, but I just can't seem to find that ability to do so. I've tried my best to love, but it still seems hard to forgive. Deep down, it is the hardest. To love, I can. To forgive, I still need work.. Why can't we just live in a world where there will never be hatred? I know that is a principle only God will understand.. and I know, He put hatred on the earth, to test us. I am determined to overcome that test.. but when can I actually succeed?....

hoLz crAzE~

whOo!!~~ i aM so in the hoLz mood righT now.. sorrY for not updating in a long time.. finaLz over, but interneT wuz down so i couldn'T really uploAd any stuff.. =( oh yeah, did i mention finaLs are OVER?!?!??!!?!?! haHa.. i aM so super excited about it.. examz are SO OVER!! but more to come i know.. well, it's holidayz now.. so i'm working~ sell fish, smell fish~ but the great thing about it iz i'm working wit my lil' cutiE =) 9th jUne, managEr of da house, eriC ho's bday.. happy b'day uncLe ho! hehe, we celebraTed wit a dinner and a cake.. couldn't go out coZ exams were two days laTer.. but we promiseD to make it up during da hoLz.. hahaha~ duncan went back to brunei..kinda borEd without him in da house, no jokeR, no siNger, no cheF =( haHahh.. but we know someone misses him moRe =p i'm smoThered ol ovEr wit boredoM and i sO wanA break free!!!!!! i miZ food bacK homE =( 4 more dayS to grandpa's 1st deaTh anniversary..i do miZ him a lot but he always liveS in my heart.. i am so sad i can't be bacK theRe to visiT hiz grave.. but i know he will understaNd.. i miz my frenZ 2 =( ginA, dolly.....................miz u guyZ so freaking much! yiN, eVan....faSter cOme heReeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! i'm lookinG forwaRd to da hoLz where i totally get to reLax! i'll posT moRe updatEs sooN~ going ouT soon so ciaO!

uncLe ho'S bdAy caKe

sO roMantiC ?!?!?!

21st bDay oOo..

sOme hanDsoMe, soMe cuTe =p

uncLe hO hoLding hiZ tickEt tO disNeyLand!!!!

mY eDmonD (",)

*mE & hIm*

stRonger than yesterdaY...

dOo dOo.... told ya i would be back soon... hmm..anythin i should mention relating to ma topicz? oh yeah.. im stronger now.. muahaha.. my antibodies workin fine.. and i'm nt sick anymore.. im oso mentally stronger, no longer beaten by mental discouragement..i am no longer that fool whom u can mentally bully =p ooo..moz important of all..my love for *him* goes stronger each day..4 years now.. how much i have grown in diz relationship, i cant tell.. how forever grateful am i to him for changing my life..hiz love n kindness i can nvr repay.. in another month, we will find dat key to da answer we've been searching for..patience iz ol i need!!! altho i muz admit i cant wait =p its a joy we will share and a memory we'll keep =) im nt braggin bout my great relationship, juz emphasizing on how much i appreciate things around me.. so people, start appreciating all da people around u.. especially thoz who lurv u... never let go of yer own happiness..as it can never be found in da handz of otherz.. u hold da key to ur own fairytale kingdom and i kno u'll all find it =) ol diz can never happen without da prescence of my Father in Heaven.. stroNger than yesterday...indeed...my faith iz stronger than yesterday..wit faith everything will work out well fer me, i will never fear.. "Fear departs when faith endures"...

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haPpY, smiLinG, jOyfuL = bLessEd

bLoggiNg breaK~~

Hey all ouT theRe~ when i looked back at my blog, it wuz then i realised my last entry wuz practically a month agO!!! man, time passes by really quickly... diz iz my thirD montH here in good ol' pErth.. daRn rigHt... many thinGs have happened in dat montH i've been missiNg from blogging! Exams, assignments... arGh, i don even wana talk about thoSe stuff foR now.. finaLs are up in one week.. scAred? yeaP.. neRvous? yeaP! exciTed? yeaP!! ReaDy?? NOPE!!! i juz hoPe the knowledge i have right now iz enough to help me pass.. i'm tiRed of studying!! looking forwaRd to da hols.. sheeSh, enough of educatioN craPz... oOo, mum wuz heRe for a weeK laz week.. hapPy to have heR heRe but now she's gonE back to miRizzzzz =( Sad.... i miz my famiLy so much... feeLing so crappy bout diz.. but heY, a girL's gotta do whaT she came out foR!!! i'll be INDEPENDENT =p althO, i'd admiT i miz laksA and naSi leMak =p soMe pics are still in my phOne so i'll be uploadiNg dem in da next enTry... till heRe feR noW..............