*Happy 22nd Birthday, Honey*

Happy Birthday to the One who helped me go through it all.. I hope what I did was enough for you =) Muakz!!!

Happy birthday to the one I love!
All my joy goes out to you today!
Perhaps I learned, the months you were away,
Part of me moves always as you move.
You're the yearning distance can't remove,
Bringing life to reveries cold and gray;
In thoughts of you my dreams and passions play,
Rejoicing in a hope that time will prove.
Today I celebrate your day of birth,
Happy in the hour that brought you here,
Drawn by all the music of your worth,
A time for gratitude that you are near.
You are the one on Earth I hold most dear.

maY all wisHes u maKe comE truE, LovE

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008

January 2007

2006 gone. I was prepared to start a new year and a new life in a new place. I was scheduled to leave for Perth in exactly one month. I started off the new year by celebrating my daddy's 50th birthday! I was glad that I was there for it.. It's not everyday that my daddy turns 50! Before I headed off to that faraway land, I had another mission- shopping in KL! I left for KL with my mummy and my darlie~ We celebrated darlie's 21st birthday at KL as well.. He was scheduled to leave two days after we arrive back in Miri.. We wouldn't be able to celebrate our 3rd anniversary together =( My heart sank at the thought of parting with him that early.... This month, we celebrated the 8th death anniversary of my paternal grandfather, Chew Choi Onn. Grandpa, I hope you are dwelling happily with the Lord above. I love you.

February 2007

Darlie didn't leave as scheduled.. it was pushed back for another week! Which means we had more time to spend together! He left on 5th of February. Daddy and I sent him to the airport.. My heart sank once again as I watch him go through security and into the waiting room.. At the airport, I had mixed feelings. Suddenly I didn't feel like leaving anymore. I don't think I can handle the fact of leaving my family behind. I looked at my daddy's face, I don't think I can ever say goodbye. My flight was scheduled to be on the 12th. Days before that, I cried, said goodbyes, enjoyed local delicacies, cried, felt heavy in the heart. On that day itself, the first person I hugged was uncle ryan- he had to leave earlier. Then everybody else. My heart felt so heavy.. who said it was easy to part with your family?? I stepped down on Perth ground, ready to start a new life with someone special =) I was happy to see him again..

March 2007

After all Mum has been through with me, I had to say goodbye to her. It was heartbreaking, nerve wrecking and breath taking.. It was just plain HARD~ I couldn't focus well in uni for the first few weeks, I had to adjust to the fact that there is no longer someone to cook, wash and wait on me. I had to be independent. But with him by my side, everything was so much easier. I had a shoulder to lean on when I felt tired. God sent me this far to help me learn but He didn't not let me be alone. I thank God for darlie's presence =)

April 2007

Studies goes on as usual. I am in line for my studies, not failing anything. Easter is here! To be able to celebrate this wonderful day, I ponder about the things my Saviour has done for me. He has thus brought me this far, I marvel at it. I am thankful that I am now in Australia, working hard for my future. Many assignments are due soon and finals are up in two months. I do hope I am ready!

May 2007

Mum and kakak came over for a visit! Mum will be going back in a week or two but kakak will be here for two months! Finals are here next month. I am starting to prepare well, nothing special is happening this month.

June 2007

Final exams are here. I am stressing out pretty badly but I know the Lord will always be there to answer my prayers. I know He will guide me through everything I need to do. I will not let my family down. Trust me, I will not =) End of exams = start of mid-term holidays!!! I will start work at the Carousel Seafood Market this month, I hope everything works out well.

July 2007

One thing I hate most in my life is saying goodbyes. Why do we have to part each time we meet? This month, I have to say goodbye to Kakak. She will be going home to Miri. I always say I'd rather stay here to work, but deep down in my heart, there is always that feeling, longing to go home to see them all.. I won't deny the fact that I think of my family all the time. Results are released. There, I said the Lord will always answer my prayers. Daddy, Mummy.. I have made you proud =) This month, we also celebrated the first death anniversary of a very important man in my life- my maternal grandfather, Tiong Tai Sui. I will never forget this month of last year, it was the hardest I had to go through. I will never ever forget it. I miss you grandpa, I love you..

August 2007

Uni commences. Assignments start, quizzes start.. another semester. Happy 25th birthday to my 2nd sister, Cherina Chiew! I hope that you may be blessed with all the joy and happiness you can get. I pray that you will realize the love that the Lord has for each and everyone of us. The load for this semester is heavier, definitely heavier! I just hope I can go through it all.

September 2007

Happy 27th birthday to my eldest sister, Alwyna Chiew!!!!! Do not deny the fact that you have grown a year older as they say, a year older, a year wiser. I pray that you may find your loved one soon, so you can get married before me =p Mid semester tests are all falling in at this time. A stressful month for me, I cried one or two times. I desperately needed help with all I was coping. Work, studies, friends- I could not handle them all at once.

October 2007

The most important month in the year and if anyone can guess why... well, you're smart! Yeap!! It's my birthday month! Born as a Libra, I am what it says~ I turn 19 this month but that's nothing special. I still have two more years to go =) However, my day was a special one. Curtin had this asian festival.. kinda like what we called 'Pasar Malam'.. So two days before that and on my birthday, I was working like hell.. Soooo many people celebrated my birthday with me.. how proud ey~ =p.. I thank those who have gotten me presents, I thank my brothers for celebrating with me, I thank my family for all those lovely calls and I thank all those who remembered! I will always love you guys!

November 2007

First year finals are here! I am gonna be done with first year after these exams. All the papers were alright except Human Biology. That is why I hate Biology, I never get over it. I really thought I would have flunked the darn paper. I decided to leave it all behind me and concentrate on my next mission = earning money!! I was scheduled for work quite a lot of days.. so $, here I come!

December 2007

Last month of the year. Mine was colourful. With work, I was exceptionally happy with what I have achieved- many friends, a loving second parents. With studies, results that made my daddy and mummy proud once again. With love, another year for us and more to come =) Mummy and darlie's mum was gonna be here for holidays! How exciting! I was excited about Christmas.. My second mum and pup was gonna take us down to Busselton Resort for a holiday! How exciting.. We had a superb time! But I didn't take much pictures, i forgot my cameo.. how SMART ey~ Christmas had other meanings to me too. It brought painful memories and happy memories. I marvel and think of how happy we used to be in Bintulu, celebrating Christmas together. I cried. I think of how I would have been able to celebrate christmas with my grandpa, I cried. I think of how I missed him badly during this day, I cried. But to think of him watching over me all the time, I smile. To know how much the Lord has blessed me this year, I smile. To be able to go through so much and have grown stronger over the year, I smile. Happy Christmas and May 2008 be an exceptional year for all of you! I love you guys!

*a waR oF sweEtnEss beTweeN siSteRs*

eHem... aS i toLd my siSter (thE onE who oWez deNies heR "oLdneSs").. i wouLd be baCk for RevengE wiTh HER embaRassiNg picTuRes! hAr haR... who's laUghing noW? huH? WHO?!?!?!?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~ a haLf naKed piCtuRe oF heR~~

*hEr faMous haIr brouGht abOut heR chinEsE naMe*

oLdeR noW..gOt siSteR edI..oh, thE tiNy tOt neXt to heR iS my oTheR sisTer daT gangEd up wItH heR tO LOCK me ouT oF de rOom whEneVer theY pLayed DOLLS~

wHat dId i teLL u abOut heR denYing beiNg oLd????

REVENGE IS SOOOOO SWEET =)

*bUsY busY wEeK.....*

i'm buSted...not busted for doing something bad and evil..... i'm defining busted as being really really really really tired... the past week have been amazingly busy but eoxtremely memrable.. hehehe.. first, there wuz da perth royal show where i had a blast!! and a blast in my wallet as well @_@.. second, there wuz de night market which EVERYBODY @ de shop hav been waiting for.. we're glad itz over but sad itz over as well.. hahaha.. lastly, it wuz...mE's b'daY!!!! coolioz... i had tons of presents dat contributed so much to my weight gain.. lemme see.. overall, i had four cakes...one ice-cream..three dinners and one lunch!!!! how much kg do u think would dat be? i would be sweating it out @ da gym like a pig... anywayz.. everything went really really well.. spent a really wonderful b'day working.. hahaha.. sixteen hours of work..~ waddya think?! i think it wuz really cool... cool but tiring.. i'm glad it's over.. but like i said.. sad it's over bcoz diz means i have to get back to studying for examz n stuff.. time passes by really quickly..i mean, it's omoz end of da year and diz means?? darN finals.... darN assignments........darn exams~~~~ but i'll b moving on to my second year and it's another year to go! *ding Dong*....honestly, i cant think of wad to write now...i feel like one part of my brain is bein stuffed... wadeva... here'z some picz....

*beForE heaDing oFf tO de sHow*

*iT maY seEm liKe a chocoLate heaVen buT gueZ waT? it wuZ MORE thaN daT =p*

*uNdeFineD......*

*oMoz @ dE eNd oF de daY...*

*BecaUse you LoVed mE.....*

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

*beCausE you Loved mE.....*

^mE n mY oLd ridE^

*afTer ouR socCer gaMe*

*reaL socCer? oR jusT for dE cammIe?*

`bacK..............................`

gOsh.. here i am sitting in the libRary.. wondering "What in the world am i doing here while everybody is on break?" EXACTLY!!! Why in the world do I have so many exams due this week when everybody is enjoying their freaking tuition free week?! With all the exams.. my tuition free week is now tuition free days!! I am dead, true dead.. can't wait for finals to come but on the other hand, i dread the day it comes =p life's been good.. minus the uni life. oo.. i just became an aunt to a baby girl yesterday~ that's my second "anak saudara"!! wit da first nephew growing up.. now i'm going to miss the growth of my niece too.. sheesh.. talk about bad timing... oni drank milo n 'sau ta piang' diz morning.. so brain x functioning well.. datz y i feel dat i'm loss for words.. oh, i went 2 de market yesterday n guez what i found? HUP SENG CREAM CRACKERS!!! Oh my goodness.. can't believe my own eyes.. i can actually find my favourite biscuit here!! heh.. will survive now.. last nite we had BAK KUT TEH for dinner.. made it all by myself.. wahahaha.. x bad for my first time tho =p da home bug iz back.. where at times i wana go home so badly.. for da food! n for da people..fine fine.. for my family.. fine fine.. for my irritating SISTER~ (not!)... mind my post diz time as it is so so not organised.. i juz type what flows into my mind =p

vRoooM vRoooM... wHen caN driVe herE to sEe gU gU?????

mY neW peT....yeaH riTe~ he's a LoneLy one~~

ngai D..dOno hoW to take Pic oNe diz maN.. oo, datz my rIde~

wit aUntiE duRing faTher's daY LuncH

aLL of uS duRing da LuncH

*wHy famiLy cOmeS befoRe eveRythiNg......*

daRn...Although i always do say I am strong and will not cry when I think of my family.. I did it laz night! @_@ and it's all because of someone's fault!! somEone wit de name of chiew hOoi lin.......... her latest blog entry triggered the hormones in me =( two birthdays without him, two christmas without him.. but the memories still goes on.. his passing made me realise how important it is to love n cherish all those beside us.. because we never know when they might leave... i didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, let more see him alive for the laz time.. He didn't wait for me to tell him how much i loved him, tell him how much I wanted him to see me graduate, tell him how much I wanted him to be at my wedding one day, tell him how proud I was to be his baby grandaughter... The kiss on the forehead will be gone forever... but I am glad I left my kiss on his forehead... the other way round before I finally said goodbye to him.. That day will always live in my memory... and the pain will always be there...I am always reminded of his love when I see grandpas take their little ones shopping, to the park or just a simple walk along the pathway. I am reminded of how much I missed those times. Although those times will never relive, they are always alive in my heart. I never knew the importance of a family until I was in my late teens.. I sometimes regret the fact that I never learnt of their love earlier. I prayed about it and then I realised it. If so many incidents hadn't taken place, there is even a chance that I won't be here today. The love in our family wouldn't have deepened if it weren't for so many incidents that took place. There fore I am no longer regretting, instead, I am grateful. Grateful for I have today..A loving family, a supportive man, the chance to gain education, the church..a beautiful life. What more could I ask for? Let us all realise how important our family is to us.. instead of a divorce, why not rekindle? instead of a custody, why not co-operate? instead of a break-up, why not give in? instead of hatred, why not love? I've learnt to give all my heart to my family.. and I will never stop giving and learning each day.. because I know this is what Heavenly Father wants me to do.. and not to forget.. this is definitely grandpa's wish....