*bYe ByE kaKak...*

bOo hoo hoo........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kakak's leaviNg 2moz.. after 2 months here, i still have to let her go back to miri!! Argh~ sometimes i really wish i can get my bachelor degree doNe, get a freaking job and buy a freaking house that all can live in!!! But at least we had some good, super good times here while my freaking sisters and my parents had to suffer @ hoMe.. muahahahaha.. now it's my turn to suffer.. whoo hoo.. yeap, i'm still selling fish to earn enough money to sponsor my irritating eldest sister a SNOW CRAB~ can u imagine that?!?!?!?! I am sure i will cry like a pig @ da airport 2moz..but lucky for me, i still have my *you-know-who* wit me =p i won't deny dat i miz food back home and moz importantly, i miz my baby hamster =( can u believe it's a crippled hamster now?!?!?! But thanks to my prayers, baby hammie survived dat dreadful, awful night~! Argh.. IRRITATING ELDEST SISTER, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF IT!!!!!!!! Life doesn't change much, uni's starting again next week~ Darn~ I'm still training my own patience, but people still irritate and annoy me a lot~~ Now i know why people always say, it doesn't take a year to change someone, it takes FOREVER~~ hehehe..i get that now! 2 and a half years to go..... whoO hOo!!!! i'm borEd now.. so i'm gonna go do sum stuff.. will update again sooN!!

wHat?! taKe oWn piC oso wrOng meH?




*eDmoNd & wEn*




KaKaK & edMonD.. gOod tiMes!



uncLe ryAn(rIcK) aNd my irrItaTing sisTer (mS.gIrL)

p/s it taKes forEver to updaTe piCs in da bloG so for moRe pics, see http://www.myspace.com/hooiw3n

I deSpeRateLy neEd coMfoRt..

Yesterday as i watched the movie "The Passion of Christ" once more, i realised that each time I watch it, there is always something new for me to learn there. This time as I watched it, as the nails painfully went through His palm, the Lord did not cry out in pain but instead, He prayed for the people that hurt Him. This showed me the example of forgiveness. As he commanded the people to love one another, this showed me the example of love. Learning the example of Jesus Christ is easy, but to actually put it to practice, why does it seem so hard? Why is it so hard for me to actually forgive someone who has actually hurt me again and again? Why is it so hard to actually put their mistakes aside? Why is it even harder to ignore the mistakes they seem to make over and over again? I desperately need comfort.. because I feel unworthy.. Unworthy to gain forgiveness because I myself can't find the courage to forgive others. I think saying "I forgive you' is easy.. but deep down in our hearts, that cut will always be there. I remember edmond telling me a story of a young boy who had a really bad temper. Each time he loses his temper, his dad told him to hammer a nail in a piece of wood. Soon, the hammering really tired him out and eventually, he learnt to control his temper. And not long after that, his dad told him to take out a nail for each time he managed to control his temper. The little boy soon pulled out all the nails. And his dad told him, "See boy, once the nail goes in and come out, it always leaves a hole there. That hole can never be covered up anymore".. That goes the same to my heart. Once the hole is there, no matter how many nails you try to pull out, it will always be there. But it's different when I am a child of God. The atonement enables me to cover up those holes, but I just can't seem to find that ability to do so. I've tried my best to love, but it still seems hard to forgive. Deep down, it is the hardest. To love, I can. To forgive, I still need work.. Why can't we just live in a world where there will never be hatred? I know that is a principle only God will understand.. and I know, He put hatred on the earth, to test us. I am determined to overcome that test.. but when can I actually succeed?....

hoLz crAzE~

whOo!!~~ i aM so in the hoLz mood righT now.. sorrY for not updating in a long time.. finaLz over, but interneT wuz down so i couldn'T really uploAd any stuff.. =( oh yeah, did i mention finaLs are OVER?!?!??!!?!?! haHa.. i aM so super excited about it.. examz are SO OVER!! but more to come i know.. well, it's holidayz now.. so i'm working~ sell fish, smell fish~ but the great thing about it iz i'm working wit my lil' cutiE =) 9th jUne, managEr of da house, eriC ho's bday.. happy b'day uncLe ho! hehe, we celebraTed wit a dinner and a cake.. couldn't go out coZ exams were two days laTer.. but we promiseD to make it up during da hoLz.. hahaha~ duncan went back to brunei..kinda borEd without him in da house, no jokeR, no siNger, no cheF =( haHahh.. but we know someone misses him moRe =p i'm smoThered ol ovEr wit boredoM and i sO wanA break free!!!!!! i miZ food bacK homE =( 4 more dayS to grandpa's 1st deaTh anniversary..i do miZ him a lot but he always liveS in my heart.. i am so sad i can't be bacK theRe to visiT hiz grave.. but i know he will understaNd.. i miz my frenZ 2 =( ginA, dolly.....................miz u guyZ so freaking much! yiN, eVan....faSter cOme heReeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! i'm lookinG forwaRd to da hoLz where i totally get to reLax! i'll posT moRe updatEs sooN~ going ouT soon so ciaO!

uncLe ho'S bdAy caKe

sO roMantiC ?!?!?!

21st bDay oOo..

sOme hanDsoMe, soMe cuTe =p

uncLe hO hoLding hiZ tickEt tO disNeyLand!!!!

mY eDmonD (",)

*mE & hIm*

stRonger than yesterdaY...

dOo dOo.... told ya i would be back soon... hmm..anythin i should mention relating to ma topicz? oh yeah.. im stronger now.. muahaha.. my antibodies workin fine.. and i'm nt sick anymore.. im oso mentally stronger, no longer beaten by mental discouragement..i am no longer that fool whom u can mentally bully =p ooo..moz important of all..my love for *him* goes stronger each day..4 years now.. how much i have grown in diz relationship, i cant tell.. how forever grateful am i to him for changing my life..hiz love n kindness i can nvr repay.. in another month, we will find dat key to da answer we've been searching for..patience iz ol i need!!! altho i muz admit i cant wait =p its a joy we will share and a memory we'll keep =) im nt braggin bout my great relationship, juz emphasizing on how much i appreciate things around me.. so people, start appreciating all da people around u.. especially thoz who lurv u... never let go of yer own happiness..as it can never be found in da handz of otherz.. u hold da key to ur own fairytale kingdom and i kno u'll all find it =) ol diz can never happen without da prescence of my Father in Heaven.. stroNger than yesterday...indeed...my faith iz stronger than yesterday..wit faith everything will work out well fer me, i will never fear.. "Fear departs when faith endures"...

wInniE-wEn




aT frEmantLe marKets




viEw oF canniNg riVeR




mY LiL' niGga & i




haPpY, smiLinG, jOyfuL = bLessEd

bLoggiNg breaK~~

Hey all ouT theRe~ when i looked back at my blog, it wuz then i realised my last entry wuz practically a month agO!!! man, time passes by really quickly... diz iz my thirD montH here in good ol' pErth.. daRn rigHt... many thinGs have happened in dat montH i've been missiNg from blogging! Exams, assignments... arGh, i don even wana talk about thoSe stuff foR now.. finaLs are up in one week.. scAred? yeaP.. neRvous? yeaP! exciTed? yeaP!! ReaDy?? NOPE!!! i juz hoPe the knowledge i have right now iz enough to help me pass.. i'm tiRed of studying!! looking forwaRd to da hols.. sheeSh, enough of educatioN craPz... oOo, mum wuz heRe for a weeK laz week.. hapPy to have heR heRe but now she's gonE back to miRizzzzz =( Sad.... i miz my famiLy so much... feeLing so crappy bout diz.. but heY, a girL's gotta do whaT she came out foR!!! i'll be INDEPENDENT =p althO, i'd admiT i miz laksA and naSi leMak =p soMe pics are still in my phOne so i'll be uploadiNg dem in da next enTry... till heRe feR noW..............

~the MiracLe of ForgiveNess~

God has commanded us to forgive all those who have hurt us.. but is it really that easy? I sometimes find myself pondering and thinking deeply about this question.. and it is not one bit easy. To forgive those who have hurt me, it can be easy.. but it needs time. But to forget what they have done to me, really isn't easy. It takes much effort and sincere prayers to really find the comfort I used to have with them. I definitely want peace with everyone around me, but again and again, people seem to come into my life, hurt me and leave.. I hate it that way.. I want to love and treasure the time I have with everyone around me... Another goal I would like to add into my list of resolutions for year 2007 =p oOo... research outline handed in on friday... one weight off my shoulder... went thru mid sem exams fer med lab and measurement lab.. two weights off my shoulder.. celebrated by watching big brother da whole nite, followed by da search for da pussycat doll.. ooo.. but that afternoon, went to carousel wit winnie... we celebrated by eating lunch at han's cafe... girls' noon we call it =p no guys allowed.. haha, but really... what can we ever talk about when there are guys in da house? of course we treasured da time we had together as girls.... gossips, rumours, da guys... everything!! had a fun afternoon, thanks winnie... =) and thanks han's cafe for da good seafood fried rice =p herE are some pics....

*wEn*



-wInniE, wEn-



-wiNniE, wEn-


*wEn*

~baCk afTer 2 wEeks!!!!~

i'm baCk @_@ after a whoLe two freakIn bZ weeks of assignmenTs and exams... many things havE happened... well, not much really =p duncan's birthday..mum's birthday...new job foR edmond... ooOo yeaH, heRe i waNa wiSh duncAn donuT and muMmy hapee biRfdaY!!! i aM still mE.... still bein a slaCker... but hey, i still can't find a jOb.. what aM i to dO?? i'm still bein da glamorous lil princess at hOme... wit moOd swings.... oh yeAh... finiShed medicaL Lab and MeasurEment Lab exams yesterDay...whoo hOo!!! anD today... i maRk the end of reseaRch outLine!!!!! yipEe..................it's tiMe to enjoy... went to Hungry Jacks AGAIN, last night...gosh... i'm goin to slack agaIn rite noW... so c ya sooN!! muaKz!!! i miss my girLfrienDs =(

cuTe cuTe dE wiNniE anD mUa =p

eDmoNd zAi anD muA =)

wIt wiNniE aT kaRaokE =p

pRay ? oR cRy?

suPersTar cuttIng hiS caKe

shuAi ge(s) oF da houSe

oUr LittLe buT coSy faMily =)

i've been stUdyiNg!! REALLY!!! Look aT my frEakin eYes!!!